Where I work, we are big on finding out what your strengths are when you join the team. My first 3 strengths are arranger, responsibility and achiever. You may be wondering what that means. Well, for someone like me who arranges a schedule for things to get done and feels the responsibility to get it done quickly….I definitely have not achieved my goal when things don’t the way that I expect! (Cheesy, I know) It all comes to down to a simple word -control. Don’t get me wrong, being a planner or organized is definitely a good thing. But at times, even good things taken to the extreme can be a weakness instead of a strength.
It all started with yesterday. (Actually, it’s been going on for ages but we’ll ‘start’ with yesterday!) I went to get some documents that I’ve requested from the pediatrician since last week, just to find out that they they have to redo it and the doctor had already left for the day. I also get mail back from another state asking me to jump through multiple hoops to get some paperwork done. Geez Louise! Then, I go to get some papers notarized- only to find out I have to redo it because I wasn’t careful to read every print in my 20 page instruction sheet.
There’s some truth in the fact that if things get done quickly, the adoption process will move faster for us. But at some point, I have to just let it go. That ‘point’ was today. I have come to the realization (once again) that I am not in control and that’s okay. Ultimately, things rest in God’s timing and I can trust His organizational skills and planning for our life. His timing can’t be rushed or slowed…it’s perfect when it is. Like in Ecc. 3:11 “He has made all things beautiful in His time.”
