Tomorrow is our Baby Naina’s birthday. Actually, with the time difference, it’s already May 22nd! She’s finally a year old. Until now, Levi referred to her age as ‘0′ since she hadn’t turned one yet but now she’s finally a number! There’s so many things going through my mind –
I’m thankful for her life and that her birth mom made the difficult yet best decision to give her up. I’m so glad that she didn’t choose to end her pregnancy and instead gave birth to a beautiful little girl. I’m thankful that God has kept her safe and healthy. She’s had food to eat and a roof over her head since she was born. I wonder if her birth mom thinks of this day often and what she feels. Does she wonder how her baby is? Does she feel pain or guilt? I pray today that if she does, God would heal and comfort her heart….that she would be restored from any sense of shame or condemnation.
I’m a bit sad that I don’t have any recent pictures of our baby. No news of how she is. I don’t know how her day will be and wish that someone would spoil her today. I wonder if she’s already walking and if she’s started to talk yet at all. I wish she was here so we can see all her ‘firsts’ and make memories of her first birthday with her.
We sent her a care package a few weeks ago in the hopes she’ll get it around her birthday. We were told it may get lost with all the other toys and blankets when things are cleaned/laundered in bulk but we sent a blanket, a teddy bear, a book, and a teether anyways. It was actually more for us than it is for her. She doesn’t even know what a birthday is- let alone that it’s hers. It’s just a way for us to celebrate miles a way.. we’re making the day special by baking a cake, going out to eat and taking lots of pictures that we can show her when she’s older.
Happy Birthday baby girl!! We love you so much and can’t wait to see you soon! Hoping you’re having the best of days today. <3
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