I haven’t blogged in almost a month now. It’s not because things haven’t happened in life because despite what goes on inside of us, life doesn’t stop and time doesn’t freeze. The last few weeks, my lil girl lost her front tooth, my parents flew back to NC, we’ve had visits from wonderful friends, and the list goes on and on.
With all that life has to offer, my thoughts still drift to a lil boy that I’m waiting for. We just recently bought bikes for our kids (it was on sale!) and I wondered when I’d be able to buy him one or if he’ll have his big brother’s hand-me down. And when my daughter and I went to the store, she pointed out clothes excitedly and asked ‘Oh mommy, can we buy this for our baby brother?’ and yet again I have to tell her we can get it when he comes home.
I have his picture on my phone and I’ve been proudly showing it off to every stranger that I meet, regardless of whether they’re interested or not. I even have a picture on my nightstand so every morning I wake up to see his smiling face looking at me and I pray that we’re one day closer to holding him. A part of my heart is all the way in India-with my baby boy.
I hear people say that I’m so patient and that they wouldn’t be able to be patient like me. Funny thing is that I’m not sure what patience looks like because I’m constantly asking God to do a miracle and move obstacles and sometimes crying my eyes out. If I could fly over an ocean or jump over some walls with the hopes of getting him, I really would! But there’s absolutely nothing I can do to make things go faster (other than pray) so I wait. But I remind myself that the best things in life are worth waiting for. 🙂 I waited to marry Alan, waited to get a home of our own, do work that I love, and have two darling little ones.
To my lil boy: So until I see you….I pray that God watches over you. That everyday is bright and fun-filled with people to love on you and kids to play with you. I hope your all smiles, running around without a care in the world! And one day soon you’ll hear about a lady called ‘mama’ who is very impatient to meet you.
(Lil George Fund: http://www.gofundme.com/5lymfo)
